The greatest influences in my life have been women. Despite my feelings about my mother she greatly influenced the man I became today. If she hadn’t done what she did I don’t know where I’d be, probably dead without training. I wonder what life would be like if I hadn’t sparked, without my magic I’m a normal person. I could easily fly under the human radar would my mother have even known I was special? What would life be like not being Cesari. I’m not sure I want to know, life as a human is hard. Pretending to be one makes it harder.
Dae’lin Rivera is the strongest most stubborn woman I know. When she got me I was broken. I’m still broken, but I’m not in pieces anymore, but when I was six I had been beaten and abused for a year without a day of rest. I never told anyone. Not even Margo, the third women who has influenced me greatly. Both Dae’lin and Margo have helped me heal. Dae’lin taking on the role of my mentor and Margo my guide. Without either I would still be broken.
They taught me how to cope, how to handle being me how to get through a day without wanting to cry or worse things. I still speak to Margo on a weekly basis – Monday at 9:30 am every week. And I speak with Dae’lin whenever I need to. Both are only a phone call away.
I don’t think I’d ever tell Dae’lin that she means a lot to me. She isn’t the sappy type, at least not with me. But I tell Margo all the time. Margo is the closest thing I have to a mother – a real mother – the one who cares for you and guides you and loves you unconditionally. I don’t know if the latter is true of Margo, but it’s the closest thing I’ve got.