AJ’s got a song on repeat that’s kinda got everyone on the sappy sad side right now.
With shortness of breath, I’ll explain the infinite. How rare and beautiful it truly is that we exist.
It’s the lyrics of Saturn by Sleeping at Last. The song is beautiful, the words are captivating and inspiring in that sad sort of way. It makes you miss people from your lives, knowing that they made an impact on your life.
For all that I hate what my mother did to me, I regret a great many things when it comes to her. I hate her but I love her, it’s a very complicated feeling I have for my mother. I’m sad I’ll never get to tell her about her grand kids. I’ll never get to see her play with them. It doesn’t matter that she was a bitch to me as a child. Family is important and I would never deny anyone who wanted a relationship with my kids.
I never got the chance to know either of my parents growing up and now I can’t with my mother. I will do anything in my power to make sure I have some time with my father outside of the hatred I held for the man for so many years. It’s hard, but anything worth doing is always hard.